This Is Me Maria

With all of the medication changes, my progress is slow but here are some things I am doing to try and not die. For some reason I keep trying not to die which is completely opposite of my thoughts.

I am also reading this book called A Secret Sadness in addition to How I Stayed Alive When My Brain was Trying to Kill Me.

I am trying to write a crisis plan.

I go to therapy every week (except next week since she’s on vaca)

I started buying aromatheraputic cleaning products. I get angry when I clean, the aromatherapy helps calm me down quite a bit.

I am trying not to be alone. I shouldn’t be left alone and I’ve told Chris that and he does his best not to leave me when alone when I am having dark thoughts.

Sometimes I am really discouraged, others I feel okay. I don’t know when this will end. Hopefully soon.

Tags: trying

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