Learning
One of the things I have discovered that triggers my suicidal thoughts is fear. I recently uncovered the fact that I fear myself. I fear that my anger will get the best of me and I’ll do something I regret.
Also getting out of bed on the weekends isn’t easier yet. I can do a little here and there but with all of this medication switching I am not really making progress.
Still I am so lucky, I have like 10 phone numbers of friends on my crisis plan so far. As lonely as I feel, my crisis plan is proof that I am not alone.
Tags: crap, depression, grow, me