Posts Tagged ‘crap’

Learning

Wednesday, November 26th, 2008

One of the things I have discovered that triggers my suicidal thoughts is fear. I recently uncovered the fact that I fear myself. I fear that my anger will get the best of me and I’ll do something I regret.

Also getting out of bed on the weekends isn’t easier yet. I can do a little here and there but with all of this medication switching I am not really making progress.

Still I am so lucky, I have like 10 phone numbers of friends on my crisis plan so far. As lonely as I feel, my crisis plan is proof that I am not alone.

How not to be a good friend

Monday, September 15th, 2008

Here are three simple yet effortless ways to ruin any friendship you no longer have use for

  • Don’t remember birthdays, anniversaries, or any special dates. Or if you do remember don’t call, email, or give any hint that you did remember
  • Don’t check in, don’t take a moment to leave a note on their Facebook wall to say “hey hope you are well”, send a free eCard or take any action that says “I still care about you”
  • Only stop by to visit when you need borrow something or happen to be in town and need something from them

Torture

Friday, July 18th, 2008

I have nearly 700 photos on my SD card in my camera. My SD card is not working, no computer will recognize it. So I can only see all of these photos when the card is in my camera or in my digital picture frame. I can’t get them off of the card and into my Flickr account. Why me Technology Gods? Why???

Water is tastier than blood, just barely

Wednesday, July 16th, 2008

Content type = bitchy drama

While I admit to being pretty damn lazy (my husband will attest to this) there is a certain level of lazy that I cannot tolerate and it is where lazy starts becoming irresponsible; or in this case is so far past the line of irresponsibility that “the line is a dot!” to those in question.

My spouse has a lot of non awesome family. I do too but my family doesn’t force me to hang out with them, so we are more like casual acquaintances - I know just enough to tolerate them or even mildly appreciate their rare presence in my life.

The most non awesome people in his family are two of his cousins. Their actions infuriate me but I can’t say squat to anyone because the grandparents would like to keep the peace even though they are the ones being used and screwed here. I know they are adults too who can make their own decisions but even adults sometimes need someone to stick up for them, unless of course they tell people not to…

I’ve been channeling my evil anger towards the Eviltons but that doesn’t seem to have stopped them from borrowing thousands of dollars from two little old people who don’t have much to spare, and dumping their bratty children on them instead of bucking up and paying their own bills and for childcare like the rest of us. What I wouldn’t give to say that to their faces but then I’d have to listen my husband bitch. (As a couple we go to great lengths to avoid listening to the other one bitch.)

Anyway, I know I’m not wrong here. I am just not mature enough to let this roll off because it keeps coming back up and all I can do is stand on the side lines with my fists clenched. I can’t do anything about it and I hate that.

/bitchy drama