This Is Me Maria

I thought that finding more of myself, meant that I would drift away from my husband. At first, that seemed to be the case. To my surprise I have found that the more I love myself, the more I remember how much I love Christopher.

Being with him, is being home. Being in his arms is like basking in the warmth of the sun. There is no place I feel safer than with him.

I suppose this makes me somewhat vulnerable, but then there is no one I trust more. It is wonderful to recall that I am madly and sickeningly in love with him still after all of these years. I am so lucky.

Maybe just one little thing will help you get through each day.

1) Lay your head on the shoulder of an unquestioning, unassuming, friend that you trust. Just close your eyes and lay there for awhile.

2) Listen to a song that you really like. Music is like medicine for the soul. Listen to songs that calm and caress your soul.

3) Take a walk. Everyone knows exercise helps with depression but no one explains how to climb out from the depression cloud to start exercising. Just try a comfortable walk for now.

4) Seek out a flavor tea that you love. Collect a personal sized tea set that you use just for your own private tea time.

5) Create something very small. Buy a tiny kit of some kind that allows to express your creativity but is a small project that won’t overwhelm you. Like a tiny herb garden, or a tiny ornament decorator.

Today was the first day with the new nanny. Even though I was a bit nervous, I felt much better knowing they were safe at home with our nanny than at the horrid childcare.

To end the afternoon I got a phone call letting me know I would get all of my money back other than the fees for the week the kids were there. Over $600 in fees and tuition I am getting back thankfully.

Now if I can just focus long enough to start studying for the math test I have tomorrow night…

I don’t want to have the last post stick around too long and leach energy, so I’ll tell you that today I am in an extraordinarily good mood.

We had a wonderful evening last night and I am still feeling floopy from it.